i addicted to games so i can escape from reality. i ignored anything that relates with my future bcs thinking abt it makes my anxiety increase..

im such a useless right?

haha

idk anymore

should i really take care things that related to me, bcs what the point? im already messed up so much. is there any way to go back as what i used to? like.. socializing with ppl, always makes reflection with myself, focusing on my hobby, but now.. the energy to do that just.. gone.

i miss... to be loved by someone.

but i realize, i never deserve that

those thought left me sitting at the corner of the room and cried.

for ppl who meet the right person but wrong time..

the tears stop falling.

suddenly this night.. i have a thought about that..

i wish i'll die while sujud on sejadah. fr. bcs im scared.. scared the world after death. but am i even deserve to have that? when im breathing in this world while doing sins?

i hope you guys get the same too. may Allah protect us.

i never feel this hurt play ml lol 😭

and i release my stress by sketching this 😙