𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐬𝐭 𝐩𝐚𝐢𝐧 𝐢𝐬 𝐥𝐨𝐨𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐦𝐢𝐫𝐫𝐨𝐫 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐭𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐬 𝐢𝐧 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐞𝐲𝐞𝐬, 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐟𝐚𝐢𝐥𝐞𝐝 𝐚𝐭 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠.🥀✨

This letter is for the days when you feel defeated, unloved, scared and depressed. For when you feel as if you’re carrying the weight of this world on your shoulders and your heart feels so heavy. As you open this, I hope you tell yourself that it’s okay to be a mess. I hope you tell yourself that you are doing enough. And even if you don’t think so, sometimes the littlest efforts are what matter the most. When everything becomes too much for you to understand, I hope you remind yourself that it’s okay to feel the way you are feeling. You’re not crazy for saying so many things that few people can understand. You’re not crazy for your reaction and feeling disappointed. It’s okay to have bad days. It’s okay to have days that feel a little too much to survive.


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I’m perfect in my imperfections,happy in my pain, strong in my weaknesses and beautiful in my own way because I’m me.🤍✨

Please don't expect me to always be good, kind and loving there are times when I'll be cold and thoughtless and really hard to understand..

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There’s a point in your life when you know who stays forever & who’s just around for a while. People change, but so do you. Sometimes for the best & sometimes for the worst. Bad things happen, to everyone. You’re not in it alone. People lie, & some people just don’t care how you feel. Your heart beats, no matter how much pain you’re in. Everything will be okay… There are always people in your life that just make your day, no matter the miles. You don’t forget about the ones you love. It doesn’t work like that. Give it all you’ve got, & live your life to the fullest. People would kill to be you, have what you have, someone always has it worse off than you, but that doesn’t mean your pain doesn’t count.

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If your phone ain't ringing when you're struggling, don't pick up when you're winning.

Selenophile - A person who loves the moon light.✨

Growing up in a family with high expectations is not easy. I had to prove myself all the time. They only pay attention when I have achieved something remarkable. Even being a simple with honor is not enough. They expect me to be at the top of my class, to always excel no matter what the odds are. My parents already have my life sorted out, even my profession and who they want me to marry. I grew up with this kind of mindset that I should sacrifice the present for my future because if I don't, I'll fail. My failure will not only disappoint me but everyone who wants me to be successful. I should have known it was wrong. I have wasted so much opportunities to be happy and experience how it feels to be normal because I wanted to be extraordinary.

Our current education system has transformed my perception of things completely. The phase was very fast, you know. We'll sit for a few hours in front of the phone screen to attend online classes, answer activities and submit them to Google class. I had to self-study and review by myself. It was painstakingly exhausting. I realize that it's okay if I'm not the best in the class, the smartest or the one who leaves a good impression everyone will never forget. it's okay if I fail sometimes. Making mistakes does not make me less of a human. We all have deadlines to chase, requirements to pass, problems to deal with and wounds we have to mend. I could not afford to breakdown so I had to compartmentalize. My frail body could not handle everything at once. I have learned to honor my emotions, validating them and giving myself enough rest before I continue my pursuit of success. Our society will always reiterate the idea of dreaming and soaring high, but at the end of the day, we are not defined by the expectations we have set for ourselves.

Success isn't about greatness, achievements or praises from the crowd. It's about being consistent with your efforts. It's about having faith in yourself because you believe in your dreams no matter how other people perceive them. I don't want to excel anymore. I'm fine with passing grades because I worked hard for the inputs I have submitted. I'd rather be on the middle of the rollercoaster than sit at the top while people look at me with too much speculation. I'm proud of me. Be proud of yourself, too.

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"When people allow you to know about their pain and talk about it, take your shoes off. It’s a holy place. Be humble, be kind when someone shows you vulnerability."

- Amani Albair Gohar